Monday, October 4, 2010

And SDM eats her words....

Hello again folks. So she's going to be 8 months old on the 12th of this month. I have a friend who has a 12 week old who's sleeping from 9 to 730. I'm the only one left in my mom's group who doesn't get at least 6 hours of sleep in a row...and I'm lucky to get 3. Today for her morning nap it was kind of a fluke. She slept for like 20 minutes then woke up. She was a grumpy baby and needed a bum change but she also needed more than 20 minutes sleep - but would she go back down - nope. Soother, Winnie and the Aqua machine thing and still nothing. She wasn't right out screaming crying, she was more fussy whining. So Mama said, I need more sleep and a little nap'll do me good. Let's see how she does, no soother, aqua machine and letting her fuss. If it would have gotten to and all our cry, you better believe I would have been in there but she didn't. 15 minutes of fussing and she was out. Huh...

For her afternoon nap I tried this meathod again. There was much more screaming!! She got herself turned on her stomach, doing push ups and couldn't roll back. I went in a couple times to soothe her. Picked her right up and had a little chat about how Mommy is just trying to get her to go ahead and learn how to put herself to sleep like a big girl. When I left the room she was still crying a little. It took about a half hour but she's out...sleeping like an angel right now. Huh....

And how do I feel about it? I'm not really sure. Honestly if it makes no difference to her night sleeping you better believe I'm gonna stop. Every cry broke my heart and I really hope I'm not breaking hers. I am going to spend every one of her waking moments tonight showing her how much I love her because I am terrified that I'm going to screw her up. I mean, I can see myself screwing her up when she's a teenager but already? I never want her to feel insecure, unloved or alone - EVER. I know she will someday but not because of me. Anyway...we will see how long she actually naps for and see how tonight goes but wish me luck?

oh and you mom's that never had to do this - count your lucky stars

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